Tuesday, July 31, 2012

He's my abba!

Sometimes in life God feels so distant.  Sometimes it feels like He doesn't have a hand in the everyday stuff, but is that accurate?  Is He truly sometimes more distant than others?

In the past, I would have said that yes, there are just times that He draws me closer and some times that He doesn't.  Today it hit me that He is always sitting there with open arms, it is I who chooses to draw closer to Him or to live within my own means.  The times that He feels distant are the times that I am not wholeheartedly seeking, trusting, and depending upon Him.

There are just some times that He does things to get my attention, and it feels like He is drawing me close, and He really is, but that doesn't mean that the times of distance means that He is no longer there. 

Can I just say how faithful God is?  Not that I shouldn't expect Him to be anything but!

We have been on a journey this past year trying to figure out school for Kylie, and I have posted it on Facebook already, but God is just so faithful.  And it may feel like He came through for us, but I think that really, because we put our hearts, minds, and intentions solely on Him, and obeyed our convictions, we came through for Him.  When we come through for Him, we get to see his intentions for us better.  How great His intentions for us are! Faithfully obeying and living by faith might be blind and scary, but the rewards are so visible and picturesque!

God is ordaining Kylie's education and He is using some amazing people to do it!  There have been a couple of people who are helping out via tax credits, registration fees, carpooling, and even uniforms.  Although we still do not have 100% of what we need, we now have enough to go ahead and enroll Kylie, and we are stepping out on faith that the rest will come through.  Faith got us this far and "God has come through".  He is using people who we haven't talked to in years, and are now Facebook friends, that are generously donating towards our daughter's God-driven education.  It just seems like the people that I would least expect to be part of this journey are the ones that God is using!  It is SO wonderful!

We are so grateful and so humbled by this experience.  Sometimes we feel like we are lone rangers in life, but times like these show is that we have family in the body of Christ who are there for us, and who pray for us.  The past year and a half have been very difficult for our family and we have only made it through because of those prayers and those people who love us and have been there for us one way or another.  We love everyone and are so blessed to have all of you in our lives.

This experience has already been such a blessing and in seeing God's hand in it all, we have truly experience genuine joy.  Raul and I have cried many tears over the past couple of weeks as things have been falling into place.  We are actively choosing to draw near to Him, separately, and as a couple, and the fruits have just been amazing.  

Thank all of you so much.  Thank you for allowing God to use you to take part in our daughter's education and her life.  This experience has really been awesome and has prompted growth in our family.  We feel so loved and we love all of you so very much!