Wednesday, August 1, 2012

God's mathematics

After yesterday's blog, I had contact with Cornerstone and the financial lady let me know that the scholarship pool is empty and it would be fruitless to even apply.  This was disappointing, and made my heart a little sad.  She then gave me the resource of how to apply for other scholarships from other organizations.  I spent over 2 hours filling out many applications, which is really difficult with all the kids.  The process was stressing me out, but at the same time I had some hope that it would all work out.

Today, after I went to the gym, I was listening to K-LOVE on the radio and a lady shared a remarkable story.  They were doing a hope food drive/distribution through a ministry that I do not even remember.  The miracle that God preformed was amazing.  They put food in grocery bags and would give out one bag per person.  They knew about how much food they had and hoped it would be enough.  Well, 84,000 people showed up!  They knew that they did not have enough for everyone and some volunteers started to panic.  The woman telling the story was the director at that church. She that when some of the volunteers started to count bags and talk about taking food out of some bags to make more bags, she told them to be calm, have faith, and that they would continue to pass them out and when they ran out, they ran out.  Simple as that. 

After an hour, their supply hadn't dwindled down and they realized they were going to have too much so they began passing out two bags per person.  Another hour passed and the same thing happened and so they began giving three bags per person.  Finally, as this continued, they ended up giving FIVE bags per person!  And guess what? They. Had. Extra.  They ended up having enough to drop off some supplies to several other churches!  God MULTIPLIED their food and blessed their efforts!  It was the fish and the loaves all over again!

How dare I question Him and His greatness!?!?!  He WILL provide!  Oh, ME of little faith! 

He has already shown His hand in this journey and He has already shown what His will is for this school year! We are so close on funds, why would I doubt Him now?

Oh, Lord, have patience with me, a doubting sinner!  Forgive me for thinking that You, oh Lord, are not enough!  And thank You for Your continued love for me and for never giving up on me!