I know, my blog is usually pretty dark and depressing. Some may say it’s too deep, or that I share
too much. But really? It’s therapy to me. It feels good to just get it out there and
learn more about what I am feeling deep inside.
Yes, I may be open and vulnerable but I would rather that than to be
fake and on the surface.
I am truly not that depressing. I may have depressing thoughts sometimes but
really, I am quite happy. I am blessed
with four amazing kids whom I love with all my heart. And my husband. I could write multiple blogs about my
husband. In fact, today that is exactly
what I am going to do.
This is my love note to Raul and, yes, I am keeping it
audience-appropriate.
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Dear Raul,
I try to say these things to you as frequently as possible,
daily if I can. But sometimes I just
want to shout it out to all the world!
MY MAN IS AMAZING!
We have had so much growth over the past year, and
especially over the past 5 months. I see
the growth in you, the self-control over your anger, the love you have for us,
and your commitment to our family. We
have certainly had ups and downs but this doesn’t feel like a rollercoaster
anymore. I think we have plateaued in a
good way. There’s stability, teamwork,
love, and communication here.
The way that you have been going above and beyond in how you
help me out is refreshing to me. I know
that I have been stressed out the past couple of days, but you picking up the
slack without me nagging you has helped me in so many ways. My anxiety is better, my temper is better, I
stay more organized, and feel less overwhelmed.
Your help has done this for me. Thank
you for helping out with everything, including things that you hate doing.
Through communication we have not been fighting at all. In the past I have said that it is better to
fight than to not talk at all. Somehow we
have found a balance of talking about everything but not fighting about
anything, even if we don’t always agree.
I love that. I love that I am no
longer dreading talking to you about something or feel threatened if we don’t
agree on something. Now I just know that
we will talk it out no matter what.
Thank you for that, for your patience with me even when I can be
stubborn and controlling.
Thank you for encouraging me. When you see me losing it and talk me down,
you really help me (even if you get the stink eye when you try). I really appreciate you loving me enough to
tell me how it is and to step in even though I may end up mad at you. Thank you for that sweetness and
encouragement.
Thank you for providing for us. I know that your job is stressful, that you
feel unappreciated, that you wish you could quit sometimes, but I appreciate
that you do your best even though you don’t like it. I know that it is really hard to deal with
the same problems day in and day out, to have unrealistic pressures put on you
constantly and that you just want to run away.
I am so beyond grateful that you have stuck it out for 7 years, that you
still try your best, and you still try to move up and reach your goals within
the company.
I appreciate you spoiling me. I know you always want to do more to romance
me and treat me like a princess. I know
you wish you could do more and that you are limited, but I appreciate
everything that you do for me. Whether
it is flowers, chocolates, dinner, or just watching the kids so that I can get
away for a little bit I really appreciate it and I recognize the love there.
What I am trying to say through all of this is that I love
you and that I appreciate you. While you’re
gone this weekend I will miss you terribly.
Though I may miss you, I am so glad that you get this opportunity to
learn more about God, to connect with fellow brothers, and to help lead. I will be praying for you fervently
throughout this week, as you may be under attack, and also through the weekend
that you may have no distractions and that God will meet you there.
I am so deeply in love with you. I am so encouraged by you. I am appreciative of you. I am completed by you. You are everything I would ever want in a
husband and a father for my kids. You
are truly amazing. You make my heart
smile just by being you.
Love,
Your Ally
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